bailey, everywhere

I'm Bailey, a small girl from a small town. I lived a year in Kyoto and I graduated from college in Chicago in June 2010. I lived in Boston for two years but it was a wash. I'm rebuilding from the ground up. I am intent on adventures. I like beautiful things, funny things, photography, Japan, and emoticaps. (I am a vegan in progress and sometimes it happens in public. I yell most frequently about religion, racism, "women's issues," feelings, and dresses.) My friends call me Etsuko. You write it like 悦子 and it is a very good name.
小さな町からの小さな女子ベイリー(悦子とも呼ばれてます、よく合った名前っす)です。一年間京都に住み、2010年6月にシカゴ大学から卒業しました。二年弱ボストンに住みましたが結局無駄でしたのでこれから完全なやり直し中。日常生活にも小さい冒険があると信じて過ごしています。趣味は美しいもの、おかしいもの、撮影、日本、とemoticaps。(只今ビーガン工事中でたまにその進歩も公にされます。頻繁に出て来る課題:宗教、人種主義、「女性問題」、感情、ワンピース。)どうぞ宜しくお願い致します♪

春光院に勤める??: A day at Shunkou-in

Remember, guys, the -in means ‘Temple.’ Basically.

So for my study abroad program (Kyoto Consortium for Japanese Studies), a piece of our curriculum is a “Community Involvement Program.” New this year, it was a cause mostly of misery for all of us last semester in its original guise of “Community Internship” and was reborn with a new title and more detailed information for the new crop of spring semester kids in January. Last semester we were hurried and harried and basically just picked something for the sake of our Japanese grades; I volunteered with elementary children on Saturdays, and while it was more or less fun, it still felt like a block between me and what I wanted to be doing— not that I knew particularly clearly what that was, of course. This semester, I was determined to do something I wanted to do. And what I wanted to do was volunteer “behind the scenes,” as it were, at a Buddhist temple.

Now this is easier said than done. You can’t just waltz into a temple and be like “O hai, can I make tea for guests?” So I talked to the administrators of my program, and one of the all-powerful office women spoke to her husband, an American & a Zen studies professor at Hanazono University, who introduced me to the young vice-abbot (Japanese 若住職, waka-juushoku; Buddhist temples use a lot of Christian, primarily Catholic, terminology in English) of Shunkou-in (春光院), a sub-temple within the Myoushinji (妙心寺) complex in west-northwest Kyoto. This, mind you, was way back in January. I had only the vaguest idea of what I wanted to do: I wanted to have a reason to be in a temple. Obvi. The young vice-abbot (bio: lived in America for eight years, has an American fiance studying 9th-century esoteric Buddhist statuary) was perplexed but said he would get in touch with me.

Several weeks later, I am informed by the all-powerful office lady that there is a March ceremony I’m welcome to watch. Slowly, I get into contact with the young vice-abbot, we go back and forth, and he says to call about arranging a meeting. Wednesday: I call, we speak briefly, and he says to call back and talk to his mother tomorrow. His mother, delightful over the phone, says how about seven-thirty AM Saturday? I say Gladly!

This brings us to today. Taking a tiny, old, slow-moving train which apparently caters to nowhere in the middle of the city, I arrived at the temple a little before seven thirty (I left my house a bit before six thirty) to find the gate shut. Thinking perhaps they’ll come out about seven thirty to let me in, I sat for awhile watching things go from pretty light to really light. Then suddenly from the heavy wooden side-door which I’d assumed locked comes a confident-looking, frizzy-haired European woman.
“Hello!”
“…Good morning?”
“Are you waiting for someone?”
“I’m supposed to come at seven thirty…”
“Are you here for meditation?”
“No…”
“Okay.” And she strides off.

At that point I knew the side door was unlocked, so after a few minutes, just before seven thirty, I pushed it open and walked up to the sliding doors of the main entrance and rang the bell. Out came the vice-abbot’s mother, the jitei-san (寺底さん, written with temple + garden, is the one in charge of the temple grounds, rooms, etc., a really intense job). She smiles and laughs and is absolutely wonderful.

I followed her around as she took care of the setup in front of each of the statues: changing the water in the small dishes, checking the fruit for damage, placing lit incense in the bowls of ash, making sure the flowers had adequate water, etc. She then insisted that I eat breakfast, saying I was supposed to have come without eating and her son must have forgotten to get the message to me. So I ate with the vice-abbot (Taka) and his fiance (Hillary), a very interesting couple. Then there was a Hyakkanichi (百か日, the 100th day after a person’s death; very traditionally, this is the day you finally put their bones in the grave— the bones have been hanging out in your house for awhile, since people are cremated at about day three or four, and they pass on to the next world at day forty-nine) ceremony, during which the abbot himself (an adorable man) was of course occupied, so the jitei-san, Taka, Hillary, and I washed dishes and chatted. That was basically the pattern for the majority of the day— chatting, dish washing, chatting.

I talked to Taka while his mother was out of the room, explaining that what I wanted— ie, to continue trying to be helpful a few times a week until the end of April or so. He and Hillary agreed that some help might be useful, with reservations. The jitei-san, it seems, was really nervous even about having me in today, and it was a big deal for me to be let into the kitchen. (Aside re: Japanese hospitality: there are places in the house etc. where guests go, where close guests go, and where family goes, ie where guests don’t go. The kitchen falls into the lattermost category, ie, where guests do not go. I was certainly a guest, having only been to the temple once a couple of months before and never having met anyone but the young vice-abbot, so for me to be in the kitchen eating breakfast and lunch with the family was a fairly significant breach of the Normal Way of Being Hospitable.
“You were communicating with her really well, but make sure to keep asking her questions,” Hillary said.
“Ask her lots of questions,” Taka said.

So that’s the plan. Tomorrow I’m going to call after church and talk with her about when exactly it’s helpful (in relative terms) for me to go out there. Saturday the 20th is Ohigan (the O is honorific but necessary), which is a hugely busy day for the temple, so I’ll be going out there then, plus a day or two in between to help with preparation for that. I can do little besides wash dishes and follow instructions, but apparently even a pair of willing hands is worth something. And I’ve got willing hands. :>

Hiroshima time! and other stories

HI GUYS

I’m going to Hiroshima tomorrow! And we’re staying overnight in Miyajima, which is neat because it used to be considered the dwelling place of the/some gods, so you couldn’t set foot on it (cf this cool business). True fact?

ANYWAY

Things that have happened since last I updated:

  • Two-hour conversation with my friend Maho about Christianity, because in Japan talks about religion aren’t fraught with that does he believe in anything/he wants me to believe like he does stress that almost always comes out in America, plus also Christianity isn’t this Powerful Sociopolitical Force you tend to either combat or tiptoe around or support or at any rate thing about. It was AWESOME.
  • I hate tourists.
  • Something else I can’t remember uuuuuum.
  • Went to Tokyo to see mitcho.
  • Seriously there’s something else. I’ll come back to it.

Hiroshima, I hardly knew thee

written mostly 3/28/2009, finished today

I’m back in Kyoto, which, I must admit, feels a great deal more comfortable than Hiroshima. Hiroshima is a bright, attractive, clean city, but it’s undeniable I think that the Hiroshima Peace Memorial Museum and the Genbaku Dome in the Peace Park are the heart of the city— certainly the heart of the tourism; there’s even a ferry tour straight from the Genbaku Dome etc. to Miyajima (see previous entry for link), for crying out loud. Not, of course, that that’s surprising or even necessarily inappropriate. It just makes it a little hard, I think, for anyone who’s paying attention to enjoy Hiroshima as a city instead of as Hiroshima, if that makes sense.

At any rate, the day spent on Miyajima was fantastic; the weather was crystal clear and the famous torii comported itself well, as did the Itsukushima Shrine complex; the deer were much, much less aggressive than the deer at Nara, and the island wasn’t swarming with them. (As an aside, I wonder why; I assume they’re protected on Miyajima the way they are at Nara, so I expected them to more or less overrun the place…?) My friend Charlotte and I, epic adventurers, stumbled upon most of the temples on the island on our way up “Mount Misen” (redundant—the “sen” is 山, mountain, but I guess “Mount Mi” sounds stupid), including an o-suna fumi, which has sand (砂 suna) from each of the temples of a famous prilgrimage route around Shikoku, on which you step (踏む fumu) and pray and put a few yen in the box, and when you finish all of them BAM you’ve made the real pilgrimage—economical. Also there was a small temple with 500 arhat statues about knee-high in all different positions, more cute than anything else, plus also a random Anpanman with which, of course, I took pictures. Apparently there was also an Ultraman, but I didn’t see him.

The trek up Misen itself was EPIC, and by EPIC I mean well over an hour and a half up steep stairs and my legs are still sore. But it was really beautiful—incredibly views of the ocean and the town and the torii from almost everywhere, higher and higher and higher, plus random Jizou-sama set up here and there and a stream to cross. The view from the top was absolutely stunning, plus it came with a small building in which a man would make you noodles or sell you snacks and beverages, as well as an extremely insistent and persistent deer. Charlotte and I found ourselves with a Chinese couple, who, it turned out, had very good English indeed (do all younger Chinese people have good English? I have never been to China) and were kind enough to take our picture.

The way down took longer than expected because from the “top” to the ropeway down was still a good twenty minutes. We arrived at the ropeway only to discover it was five minutes before the 5:15pm final car, which meant the compatriots whom we knew had just started/had passed on the way up would be finding their way back down. Probably in the dark. Still, we reached the bottom just as the sun was beginning to set, which is genuinely a sight to behold: the water is receded and the floating gate is exposed—it’s very, very tall—and silhouetted against the gold in the sky. Kelsey & Jasny & my other friends are sitting on the shore to watch, because I hand out with cool kids. Charlotte and I set off across the exposed sand, avoiding puddles and long green stretches of seaweed. Some of the few real citizens of Miyajima have come out with buckets and shovels and were digging in the pools. I asked one man what he was looking for. “Asari!” he said (浅蜊, littleneck clams).

That night we all stayed at a traditional inn situated up on a hill. It was AWESOME—fluffy futon (your stupid folding couch things are not futon; pallets on the floor are futon) and an almost-rotenburo (an outside onsen) and kaiseki ryori in yukata with everybody. Seriously. Let’s talk about how much I really, really like onsen etc.

The next day we sadly departed for Hiroshima proper, spending the later morning in the Hiroshima Peace Museum, which I will not describe other than to say the place has a heavy emotional impact. I felt it though it was my second time in the museum. I also want to point out that “peace museum” apparently can signify something more like “war museum,” in that the spur to peace is horror at what atomic (and regular, as it were) war does. I’m not sure how I feel about that, if only because I don’t know exactly what a “peace museum” ought to contain.

After the museum, my friends and I went to go eat Hiroshima-style okonomiyaki at the Okonomi-village (お好み村)—it’s like a teeny thin crepe piled high with shredded cabbage, yakisoba (pan-friend noodles not wholly dissimilar from lo mein), and whatever you like (“okonomi”): fried egg, bacon, oysters, squid tempura, etc. Pretty delicious. Though I personally prefer Kansai-style (the same things, but a lot more batter, so everything is mixed in so make something approximating a pancake-latke-lovechild in texture. Mmmmmm). We had very little time to look around Hiroshima; I bought some chocolate and then we headed for the station to catch a bullet train home. A final highlight: our taxi driver was totally unabashedly proud of his home city, and answered every compliment we gave with an “I know! Isn’t it great!” instead of the more traditionally polite denial. (Assumed, but not quite false, modesty is a necessity and a virtue in this country.)

On the way to the station I saw a shining dome that apparently belongs to a temple. I’m going to remember that, so I’ll have something that isn’t the war to head towards next time I go to Hiroshima.

This has given me such a bigger platform now. I actually have, you know, a purpose and a platform where I can go out and I can speak to people just about standing up for what you believe in, and not, you know, compromising your beliefs for anything.

Carrie Prejean on KMYI Radio, San Diego, California, from this CNN article.

Also of interest: the heads of the pageant say they have an issue with her ideas for being “polarizing” since as Miss USA she’d represent everybody; but if she’d said “Hooray for gay marriage &c” she’d be just as polarizing, because this is America and we don’t agree with ourselves most of the time. Just a thought.

“A woman shows her ink-marked finger after casting her vote at a polling station in Sonapur, about 50 km (31 miles) from Guwahati, India on April 23, 2009. Millions of Indians voted in this, the second stage of a month-long general election. (REUTERS/Utpal Baruah)”

Guys. You want to look at all of these. (The picture is a link!)

Photography rules this illustrates:
- closeups of faces are moving
- light/shadow/vivid color is moving
- old people, women, children > other things
- facial hair ftw

Rotary luncheons and sudden storms

Today I went with my father to his weekly Rotary luncheon at the civic center at the Ravine Gardens. A very pleasant man who lived for a time in Chicago and was in Saitama, Japan for six weeks at some point talked with me for quite a while. He asked me if, after college, I would come back here.
“To live?” I asked, and I felt my face twist so that I didn’t need his laughter or his “you should have seen your face!” to tell me what I’d looked like. I didn’t mean to.

All afternoon dark clouds slowly welled up from the horizon and roiled across the sky. After three or so it began raining very suddenly, a profusion of fat heavy drops but no smaller ones in between them. They plopped on the cement of our patio and vanished into shining damp circles like silver dollars. They had been falling for about four minutes when the sun came back out and the rain gleamed in it. Fifteen minutes later the sky was perfectly clear.

god’s talking about the shaw play and not the greek myth. the greek myth is where this dude falls in love with a statue he made, and he gives it presents, but he’s sad because the statue just stands there. but THEN it’s a happy ending because the statue comes to life, and THEN, he sexes up the statue and has a kid with the statue!! ladies and gentlemen, the greek myths

qwantz.com/chewbac.ca/dinosaurcomics.com, by Ryan North, has without fail mouseover text extras, which are as often as not just as good, or better, than the comics themselves.

“Ladies and gentlement, the Greek myths!” :DDD

I’m listening to “Wonderwall” again

Not the original, the version by Noteworthy, an all-female a capella group at the University of Georgia. I uploaded the file (“tumblred it”?) here, in case you’re curious.

Guys. It’s so good. My fifteen-year-old brother, who knows everything about music, even says it’s musically very good.

this is why I'm proud to be an American ›

(I kid, I kid. Sort of.)

[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

“paint a heart repeating, beating ‘don’t give up, don’t give up, don’t give up’”